Anxiety and depression!

Hi there! I am writing this blog about something i have called depression and deep anxiety, because of the post traumatic stress disorder that i have to deal with!Dealing with the traumas of being abused as a little child  and growing up into a dysfunctional woman, who had  no other way to cope but smoke drugs!  I did it and i cant take away the pain from  my past!It causes the depression and anxiety, it wont go away ! .So i just need to hear from somebody out there does anybody know what its like to go back to school after 25 years of living in traumatic situations. , can anybody relate to me!